*like I said, nothing last forever, I guess*

Hey Hey, I am back to blogging. Yeah, I am feeling rather bored so here I am blogging. I hope I can go through this post without stopping halfway. That is what I will do once I got tired.But hey! maybe not this time? Haha. Anyway, why I am back here updating about my life?? Well one of the reason is I got nothing better to do. And I was waiting for Naruto to load. So yeah, here I am. Amazing huh??

 

Any updates about me? Neh, I been the same old same old person. Still in this miserable darkness that I think I would never come out of. Geez, no wonder my friends said that I need to get a life. Because I think I do. Because not even one single day, my thought isnt about him. It kind of hard to get rid of him in my memory. Because so much had happened. Haix, but he belong to her. Someone that I trust. Guess, that gives me a lesson of not trusting anyone too much. I am being too nice sometimes. Oh well, but everytime I see him, I still got that heartbeat. That blood rushing everytime I see his face. I tried to ignore my surroundings. Tried to get away from the surrounding even. But however how long can I avoid? I already receive ITE love letter to me. Sheeesh. 3 module that is below 85%! Shitty! Skipping class is not an option anymore. But I should have quit earlier because everyday I am losing interest in it. In my course that is. And I should work when I got the chance to. But no, this stubborn head of mine say, go to school. It lead you to a better future. -.- AS IF!! I am suffering everyday in school. 

Thank god for the Tourism Innovation competition(which we didnt win) got me distracted and AWAY from that class. It make me feel like myself again. And surprisingly being at TP actually make me feel like going there you know. It was a FUN experience even though it is stressful but I had an awesome time! Hehe^^ Oh, the food there is AWESOME!! Excellent. I ate like nobody business. :D 

Deejay friend do give me distractions and all. I love them to the bits because they are like family to me. They are always there when I need them. They are there when I am scared. They are there when nobody in world ever listen. I thank them for existing in my life. Maybe this is what I get. After that incident, I got closer to them.Farhanah, Straven, Fiyah,Fiqah,Hasan,Danial,Imran and Adali. Thank you :D  Love yall. You guys are like brothers and sisters to me. Kamsahamnida. 

Things at home are not going so well either. I mean a few months I will not be staying in this hometown. I will be moving and I hate every single thought of it. My parents said I am the ONLY one who is not supporting. I am the ONLY one who dont understand. But listen to this, maybe I dont want to understand. I grew up here. I was raised here. I watch myself fall and rise here. How can I just go out when everything that is so dear to me go away? Everything has been taken away from me! The guy that I love so much and this house. The memories and my grandmother. and friends. How many more things god want take away from me? The universe is playing games with me but I dont want to play anymore. I am tired. Every single thing come one by one. How much longer can this body take?? Plus not to mention I lost the most valuable thing in my life. How many more?? 

They say good things come to those who wait. Well, I been waiting but nothing good has come out of it. Maybe I am being selfish nut whatever, I am tired of all this. I feel so empty right now. Really I do. Almost everything that I love is taken away from me. Thank god for my family(who are too busy for me) and my deejay family are still here. If they are taken away, I dont know if I can be strong. I been putting up a masquerade lately. I am not being myself. You may see me smiling but deep inside I am broken. Haix. whatever.