Maybe it all start coming back?

While I am blogging this, I am listening to G.Na - Without You and its on repeat. I have no idea why it is on repeat. But I just feel so emotional after seeing Ombak Rindu on YouTube. The show is really touching.

How am I doing? Other than breaking out, I am fine now. Really, I aint lying but tellin the truth. Somehow being away helps me alot. And then I realize.... that what I am feeling aint love. Its just infatuation. I got it confuse it with love. How stupid. I am wearing my promise ring. So it is impossible for me to fall in love.

But....

I do miss that person. being able to talk and text him whenever I want to just make me smile. Make me feel I have a friend with me. (:

I miss him messing up my hair. I miss beating him in air hockey. HAH! He is bad at it to be honest. :P I miss having him as a friend. Oh well...

The guy message me yesterday. He sent me a long poem. Guess he still aint over it? Sorry, but I cant be that person you want me to be. I can only be that friend. That friend. Only a friend. Hope, you doing fine. I wish you can do your best in life. And be happy. If not

"awak, akan nampak tua dari saya."

ZOO: I still deciding whether I wanna continue there as a part timer. BUT. Cai Yun my daebak chingu will not be there. She will end her internship earlier than me. I never thought I can have a friend that I can share and vent my problems with. But she will leave Kidzworld soon. Oh well. Good things dont last.

I hope I find a new job soon.

Family : Until now mum dont believe me that I have no boyfriend. HAH! Seriously mum -.-. I know I am turning 21 soon but I aint interested in finding the guy yet. I still have phobia with the previous one. Though, I admit that not all guys are the same but the thoughts of being tied down to someone really scares me. Yes, I do admit I miss having someone to call my own but.... now aint the time. Insyallah, the right one will come. Amin. Till the meantime mum, just wait for your stubborn daughter to have a boyfriend. This stubborn daughter aint ready for all those shit.