*Smile without pretending*

Above, those people in the picture are the people that gave me a reason to smile. Gave me a reason to be happy. And those people that make me feel like I belong. Just being with them makes me happy. I will totally forget that he is on my mind. I will forget all my problems and most of all, I felt happy. I never felt this light before. I can be myself and at the same time without worry people will criticize/laugh/ignore me. Thank you people.

4th February was your birthday. I wished you. I was planning to return all those things to you but somehow I decided to keep it. I am not going to throw or anything. I will be safely kept inside a box that I will not look. Because everytime I think of it, tears fall down my face. Those are beautiful memories. I cherish them a lot. But you are happy now. I will not cry anymore. Although somehow it bothers me that you dont even think of me at all. But still, knowing that you are safe, healthy and happy are all the things I could wished for.

Thank you once again for those wonderful memories. I dont deny that what I feel still remain the same but it will remained silent as always. No one will know. Everyone from now on will think that I have move on. But...

No matter what, I still wish you all the best.

About what you heard, you should have known me better that I am not the kind of person to say all those kind of things. Especially to you. And you are the only person I cannot lie to. Even if I tried to lie, you will know it all along. Remember, until now, I still remember every single details you said to me on my birthday.

Happy 20th love.

Star, I love you.. Always will be.