*my love*

hey yall wondering why I am back here and where is the picture of Dayah 20th birthday. Well, I guess yall can see it on FB. I lazy post it here. Anyways, how is my life you guy been asking? well, it been swell when it comes to this my deejay members. They actually bring out the happiness in me. I mean really, I can really just be myself. Quiet but also crazy and listening. When Im with others, I feel like I am pretending and I dont really care about my surroundings. Even if somebody criticize I will go,

"Get lost"

or

"Ok"

Yeah, to be honest. my friends, the people I been hanging out with are great but somehow I am.... not an important one there. Seriously. People either dont take me seriously or just laugh at every single thing I do. Not all. Some actually. I know some are just okay. Dont want to mention name. But when I am with deejay I feel I belong. right from the start. But somehow, I know deejay wont be a thing that I can myself because somebody will be joining soon and I will feel small again. Dont get me wrong. i encourage that they find deejay is a fun group but I want something that I can be in without any of my friends that look down on me be in it. But the person can join. As long she is committed. So far I know, I have a feeling the person wont be comitted. sheeesh.

Other than that, school sucks as usual. Been gettting sick more often. and he is constantly on my mind. I hate it you know. Someday I will learn to forget.

SOMEDAY