*GOODBYE*

I know its been a long time since I blogged and attention to all those loyal readers if there is any. I am going to stop blogging. I mean there is no point anymore. My life has been topsy turvy now. Because of one person. He said it all. And now I am just doing what he told me to.

To you, (if you are reading this)

Even though what you said to me is harsh and all, but I can never hate you. I want you to be happy. Because seeing you happy is everything I could ever ask for. I want to say sorry for what I did in the past. I know mistakes happen and I hurt you a few times. I apologize. Dont worry, I will leave you alone now. I wont bother your life anymore. Its your life. I meddle in too much. But I thank you for all the wonderful memories you gave to me. If what you said to me the other day is true then I'm sorry for making you feel that way. The feeling that I have for you is strong. Too strong to turn into hate. I am recovering. And if you see me, I might be different becase you taught me valuable lesson. Something that I will remember for the rest of my life. You are my first and last. Nothing will ever change that. Because even though I may seem moving on but I can never find a replacement for you. My heart has closed. Sure I will miss you but I can only do that in silence now. For now, I will not speak of you. And I will pretend. That is the only thing I could do. I've always been pretending. Somehow, I will move on. And I know you will be okay. Takecare of yourself. DOnt hurt yourself too much. Because I cannot stand seeing you hurt. I am letting you go because you want me to. And I always do what you told me to. I will still be there. Looking out for you. But in ways you can never see. I wll make sure you are alright. Im sorry but I gotta go my own way.

Hanbali, you are always a part of me.

I love you too much and I have to let you go..

When I look up and I see a star, it will always be you up there.

Im sorry, I love you.. Thank you