*You are fucking skinny now*

That is what one of my classmates said to me this morning. It went a little bit like this.

N: Amylia, have you been eating?

A: Yeah. I have why?

N: You look like you have not been eating

A: I have. I eat a lot yesterday

N: Your head you know you look fucking skinny now?

A: Really? Anyhow

So that is how I go. Have i really lost that much weight? I dont know. All I know is that I have no appetite for food and I cannot eat as much as I want to now. Maybe because I am too stress. But getting skinny is a good thing. I dont have be paranoid about my weight that much anymore. But I need work on my legs. They are still huge!! Oh well I can always go jogging.

Yeah, people said this people said that. But what people dont know that I still care. But people said it is a waste of time. People said that you should move on. What people dont know that it is hard. People tell me be strong. But what people dont know that I been trying that all the time. People know that I been crying at night. Those people are right. People said that forget it. But what people dont know that it hurts so much you want to just sleep you way through the pain. But what peoplw will always know that I treasure those people alot. I love them to the core.

Plus, I need a job. FAST!