*Can I wish you away?*

Again I am here to blog. Basically, I have no mood at all do do anything. If I am at home, I will usually, listen to music, dance or watch tv. Practically no life. And if I am out, I will always the one daydreaming or looking lost or I am physically there but not emotionally. Its like I might as well called dead. Until I find the light. This is how I am going be from now on. It isnt easy. To know that somebody is happy and I am stuck here. To know that everything you done for and what you did is being forgotten. To hear from everyone that somebody just doesnt care at all. It sucks you know. It sucks to see all that.

But who am I to control the future? I myself do not know what the future has in store for me. I just have to make my own future. Make sure it something.

Is it true that promises are meant to be broken? Or people say things for the sake of saying things?

You have no idea. But I really wonder how you can go out there pretend that nothing happen?  Does what I done really mean nothing. Nothing to you at all. Not even once, I went out with other guys behind your back. Except for our classmates. Never one time I give people hope and never before I turn my back against you. But you did all of that. Did all of the above. I guess I am really nothing to you. I am randomly picked anyways. There is no reason why you pick me in the first place. You know what? I feel used? I cant. I cant. Do you know that. Its not fair. But you have no heart. You did it all anyways. You took it all. Thanks. Thank you very much. Think about it? Have I ever ever went behind your back? I am faithful. But you dont. What you have to explain now?

You know what? Guys are the worst. They break girls heart. They tell them they love you and in the end they said they have no idea what love is to you. AFTER so long. Heartless. You know that. Simply heartless.