*Take a bow*

I love that song. It is currently on repeat on my iTunes.

Okay, what I post below comes from the heart. I guess things are not going the way I imagine it would be. To those who told me to be strong, I am being strong. Maybe I just love him too much. I cannot think of anything else but him. It is always about him. I will fight. Dont worry. I am never going to give. up. I been through this before. I can do this again.

I just want you to understand the condition I am in. I love you lah irritatiing. How many times must I say it? A friend of mine said that love is like chocolate. There are two types of chocolate. One chocolate is you love so much but you cannot afford it because it always on demand. The more demand it has, the more expensive it gets. The other type is that a chocolate that is so good that people just have to have it to have a taste what it is like. Well, maybe you are the chocolate that I can no longer afford.

I love you lah Hanbali!!! Its you. It has always been you. But right now, I know you want to be forgotten. But how can I forget you when you gave me so much to remember? Everytime I think of those beautiful memories, I cry because I will not have it again. Maybe, I am not good enough for you. I know where I stand right now.

Love, it can be so good at times but sometimes it is too painful that you want to die.

Baby, I miss you so. And I am sorry.