*Here I am with my confessions*

 So when you read this, you will know what has been on my mind lately.

When you ask me to sleep, I did sleep but because I cried myself to sleep. I never failed to ready your previous messages and the text you sent me now. What a big difference. I know you said, even though you didnt show it but inside you feel the same. But it saddens me how that you are not the person anymore. The way you treat me last time and now. Think. Really think. I mean think back. That person and this person. You change. So have I. I havent been smiling that often. I get emotional easily and that now, I have no mood to go school anymore. Somewhere that I findheaven compared here at home. But right now, I think that home is heaven. It is true what they said. Have you consider my feelings? How I am feeling at this point of time. How that your words no are like knives to me. Killing me slowly. I know, you spend time with me and that you will text me or call me. I appreciate all of that. But really think... How about my feelings? Have you realised that I am changing slowly too now? I dont smile as much as I used to last time. I have no mood for anything anymore?? And that I will stare to blank spaces?? Like I said, every night I cry myself to sleep just thinking of you. Happy tears and sad tears. I think on what you said to me last time. How we use to be inseperable.

But now, you got others who care about you right now. You know what I mean. It is never just me. You are like that star up there. The brightest star. Everybody wants it. Because they fallen for it. Even if I disappear, it wouldnt make any difference will it? You still have those others that really care for you. You said, you dont feel loved anymore. or that I am embarassed by you. WRONG! So WRONG! That shows how much you know me. I love you more than I love myself now. Really I do. Ask anybody. You are all I talk about. You just dont know it. Sometimes when you randomly said those words again, I am so happy. It means alot. But do you know it. I still remember when I sign in to msn and you were about to go out. You said be a good girl and i love you. then you sign off. I didnt close that conversation and waited for you to come back.

I dont want rush things too. But I just want you to hear me. Understand me. That is all I am asking.

Be true.

I will do anything. Have I not prove it? I prove it already right? Think properly.

Last, I love you. Thank you.