*What;s wrong*

Things arent going well for me and him. GOSH and its only been how long? I mean really. PATHETIC. I am nothing but pathetic. SHIT lah. This sucks. I dont even know why he suddenly change into that way. Thats the real him? Oh well, if I love him then I have to accept right? That is the only way. But it hurts you know.

Okay, I am not sure if you know my blog but if you do, I have something to say to you,

Dear you,

Its has been a week since we got toether. To be truthful, when you and I got closer, I was abit uncertain because I do not want to get hurt. I do not want a relationship that only last less than a month. I want to be in a long term. But on 050510, I was so freaking happy when you ask me. They way you said it makes me thi nk that you will never do anything to hurt me. It started off well. I love those times when me and you were together. HOw we keep the class guessing. It was funny. I love your smile. Love your weirdness. And most of all I know I love you. But somehow thing changes. I do not know why. My heart felt heavy. How am I suppose to know when you dont tell me. Is there somebody else? Is there someone that manage to capture you better.? I also do not know. Seriously. Somehow, I cant understand you. Somethings you are not telling me. But because I feel that I can save, why not save? Some people told me,

"Leave him now before its too late"

But I do not want to. How am I going to face you for 2 years knowing that you and I had share some wonderful memories together? It hurts when you act like you dont care. Honestly, do you even care about me? Do you even want me? I want to know the answer but at the same time, I also dont want to know. I told you many times how much I feel about you. But.... was it only me who is feeling it? And not you? I do not know. It is fucking confusing. I hate this. But I dont hate you. In fact its the opposite.

I need you to give me some security that you are mine. But so far you havent.

If you are reading this, you know how much I care and how hard for me to fall in love. Dont believe me? Ask my friends that know me for so long. Its really really hard for me. Love. Its something that I rarely use. But when it comes to you, it come out easily.

You, you know I love you. But do you? I have no idea.