*I've been living in a dream..*

Okay, Maybe I wont post a short post. Maybe this is the time I get my heart out. GOSH, I sound mushy. Anyways, I watched High School Musical 3 today at home. I know the year has be out eons ago but there is no harm re-watching it. For me, this will be my first time watching it. *dont laugh*

GRADUATION!

That is coming is a few months time. Soon, we will all be going on our separate ways to attachment and only meet when we are done. But, somehow, I find time really pass so fast. I dont even have time to smell the roses along the way. I mean, I started school in April and now its coming to December. WHOA, things are really that fast. Somehow, I wish that time will stop or at least slow down*taken from HSM3*

But soon, it will be over. There are 20 spots in Higher Nitec. And I am afraid I wont be THAT 20. I am afraid of losing my friends.F9! I mean, some of them are not certain if they are returning back to Higher Nitec. And some will be away. Even if they come back but some are moving on to other courses.

I wont be able to see someone anymore. Time is up. I had my easy path. Now, its time for goodbyes.

But thats not that important. MAIN thing is... I DONT WANT THINGS TO CHANGE! I want it just the way it is.

Even at home, things are changing. I cant bare with these changes. Its too drastic for me. I HATE change. Its something that I wont be able to adapt. Wont be able to accept. But just like someone keep on reminding me.

"Everything has to end somehow"

But, what if I dont want it to end? I really dont. The outside world is scary.

"This is life"

I know but why does it have to be complicated? I have no idea. Maybe, the more its gone, the more I will get use to it. I will get use to it. Soon enough.

To my dearest F9,Bastards,Bandmate...

Promise me you guys wont change. I can deal with those junk/hooplahs/craziness above but one thing I cant accept is you guys to be away from me. To change without warning. To go without goodbyes.

I really do sound mushy. But this is what I feel right now. I'm scared. Really. Im truly scared of what the future has for me.

Plus, I am afraid of rejection.

Why?

Figure it out.