hey people of the earth.

well how is my outing with me best friend yesterday??
Well it started off fine.
And turns out it wasn't only the two of us. Some girl followed him along. I mean this girl just kena busted by a guy and my best friend had to console her.

Well, first off we started of fine. He was sweet and oh-so gentleman but towards the night, he completely ignore me. I went home pretty late yesterday.
I think that girl like my best friend. Before we met this girl,
he said,
"What if the girl touch me anyhow?"
I said,
"Up to you what do want to do with her."
He said,
"Dont worry, I would not let this girl touch me."

UGHHHH!! As if. They are practically over the limit yesterday.

I was trying very hard not to break down in front of them because it would be stupid. I mean what if he ask why I am crying? What am I going to answer???

Its not like I like him more than a best friend, no, but.......
I cant help feeling a lil you know???

GOSH, why am i feeling this way.????
Yesterday was so unexpected.

He was asleep in the car before the parents drop me off. I put his present on his lap and walk off without saying a word. I only get a thanks from him this morning when he text me.
He asl why I am angry yesterday.

One thing I want to say to you but I didnt want to say
"Think about what you did last night then you tell me why I am i angry."

*sigh*
I'm still fighting to hold the tears back.

Wanna know why?

Cuz I found out yesterday that HE is the perfect guy.
I found out that whatever HE like I like.
HE has all the qualities that I want.
HE makes me laugh all the time.

But, one problem.
HE is my best friend.

Dear BFF,
Happy Birthday! Wow, you turned 18. That's huge!
It was nice knowing you. I mean you are the sweetest guy I have ever met.

Now, you're legal to do anything.
Including with that girl.

I know you said that you like me better than her but what if out of a sudden you changed your mind?
I never ever want to lose my best friend.

Gosh, I cant never imagine that to happen. You, not my best friend anymore.

Dont worry, I never go to the extend of thinking us more than that because I'm afraid bad things would happen.
Friendship is more important to me than anything in the world
You're more important to me.

Thanks BFF for yesterday event though I thought it was only going to be the two of us. Two best friends hanging out with no worries.

I think if that girl hasn't come along, I wouldn't even feel this awful. I havent felt this awful since my boyfriend broke up with me.

I really hope to see you soon.
You know, just the two of us or our bandmates.?
I miss my lead guitarist, and no, I dont think of him that way either.
HAHAHA

*sigh

Signing off,
MyliiaSmall.

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