I was totally happy today when something just ruin everything.

I was so happy that I finally got my phone back. And I had laughs in school. Saw eye candy and so on. But when I came home, my brother has to ruin it all as usual. He practically an anoyying little freak. I just cant stand him sometimes. He is like a pest. GOSH!!!

Well, I love the song Kris Aleen sang on American Idol. No Boundaries. The song is so damn nice. So i freaking want the song!!

Tomorrow is my stupidstupid NAPFA test. Dang. I am so not looking forward for tomorrow. I hate doing the stupid test that will do us no good. It is not like we are in fitness and training rights? I still have no clue why we have to take the dumb test. I am sure going to fail lorr. So what? I don't care.

Oh god, I realise that I miss him more every single day. I know this does not affect me last time or every breakup, but I kinda feel jealous for those happy couples out there. I mean I use to be one of them But it is all gone. I really want to get over him ..But I can't. Lots of people gave me advice to just move on. But I am not the type who move on easily. I do not even know why. It took me at least one year to get over F.R. Now, Peter Parker. My head really cannot take this anymore. I hate heartbreaks so much!!

Just forget him is what they say. You are only 18 is what they give me. But what if he is the one and I just miss him?

GOSH!

UGHH. this is so not me. I want to be back to my optimistic stuff again!!!

Here is the song of the day

I promised myself,
I promised I wait for you.
Midnight hours.
Where all you dreams come true.
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.
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my sister and brothers..
Know I'm in love with you.
(I Promised Myself - A* Teens)