First of all, I want to apologise to my family. I know I am a bit so unlike me but I just cant force a smile put of me. Again, I emphasized, I am not EMO!

Second of all, today didn't go my way. My family try to cheer me up but I just do not want to smile. It's hard. Really. I try to smile, I really did. I'm sorry. I just can't. I am not being myself today at all.

I am really sorry guys. Probably tomorrow I will act even more worst. I never been so down before. This is worst than my friendship break up with F.R.

Again, every intention on to blog on how I am feeling but I decided not to. I do not want people to think that I am pathetic. But...


Forget it.

Again, I am so so so so sorry. Thanks for the cheer ups today. It worked for a while..
I love you guys loads.