Heya.

Seriously,I am dead bored at home. I need to go out. Luckily I am going out today. Not really an outing but training but still.. beats staying at home. Anyways,need to have a stop over at the interchange to extend my card. Apparently,if I do not extend it,I have to pay adult fare. Troublesome much!

I am suffering from boredom and the only way to cure is going out. Uggh. I am sick staying at home. I am sick of just reading books(which I have been doing a lot during the holidays) I am sick of not having cash to go out. I am a helpless fool.

Yesterday,I can't sleep because I was up all night thinking the outcome of my results. If I failed... I will disappoint my parents and that is the last thing I want to do to them. I even cried thinking if I failed,the looks on their faces. Sure,my mum said that she cannot force me something I cannot do... but what if I did something major wrong to them and the bring my bad result up???
I know,I know they won't do that.. But what if they did?? I will never be the same again. I tell yall,if I did fail,I might change. Drastically. Seriously. I will never be the very optimistic Amylia. I will change to all pessimistic because somehow I feel down.

But the result is not here yet so I can still be the very optimistic girl while I have the chance.

Anyways,that is how I feel about the O level results. I never been afraid in my entire life. Never.

Let's see..
I am not afraid of heights.
Not afraid of being alone.
Not afraid of the dark.
Not afraid of rejection.
Not afraid of people.


BUT!!!
I am afraid of failure.
Because I never been a failure.
Sure I failed a lot of test but nothing major that will affect my whole entire LIFE!!!!


This O levels really trying to kill my optimism.


I have a few more days to enjoy..



ready to brace for disappointment